Failure

Failure..

The thing everyone fears..
I have realised that if we were to conquer our fear for failure, we can build success more than we could ever imagined.

Recently i have seen a video on youtube which shows Steve Job speaking to graduates. He said that he sees everyday as his last day in life, and there after ask himself what he really wants before he "dies". The fact that it was his "last day", he would not be afraid of any failures and thus achieving great success.

A simple description about failing to the way of success is when babies learn to walk. For them to walk, they must first learn to climb up when they fall. Eventually, they will be able to walk and then even run. The sad truth is that, as people grow older and older, they grow to fear failure more and more. Remember about the time when you were young and did not think about failing? Compared to now, you will be able to see it in yourself too.

Failure is the learning way to success. Without failure, there can be no success.

Realistic

Some people think being realistic is bad. They hate realistic people. But the truth is the whole world is realistic itself. People who cannot live with realistic people find themselves to be living a very bad life. This would in turn make them hate this realistic world more.

In fact, everyone of us hates this world. But we must still compromise with it to earn some living. The world is corrupted and unfair, but what about it? Have u ever not been unfair before? This world is actually made by us, humans. So we are in fact the ones that made this world realistic. You can run and not accept this fact, but it will always haunt you till the day you realize what is wrong with the world. Then you will decide to blend into the world which will turn you into a realistic person. You can never escape.

You will always lose to this realistic world. Always.
In the end of everything, you will find that actually,

you don't understand anything about the world.



One last question to debate with and think about:
Truthfully, do you think hatred would make you stronger than love would make you?

Scary

Recently i read a forum post on sgcafe cosplay thread.
"I am giving up my cosplay life: JigglyJigglyPuff"
It looks rather interesting so i went in..

This 14 year old cute girl had cornea ulcer!! And she has to give up her cosplaying hobby because of that. I was like WTF because she had cornea ulcer because of wearing contact lenses. Then i got scared. And also i pity her dam alot. Coz in her blog, she wrote something that is so touching. And she is so cute, but the ulcer will spoil her looks, so it is indeed a waste.

Cornea Ulcer.

Today, i heard from her saying that her appointment with her doctor has finally ended. Glad to hear that she will be recovering soon. So there is indeed a cure for it. Then my fear for wearing contact lenses will be lesser.

A link to a link

The other day i was bored and i happened to stumble upon Clarence's blog. Then he has this "What's your Name's Hidden Meaning?" thing. So i got curious and i wanted to take a look at my name as well. Then there was no link so i went to Clarence's friend's blog, Selena (i don't know her), to see if there is a link to the site. And yes there is!

What Zhi Feng Means

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

And this is the result. But well, i want to tell you guys about Shawn's newest news update. His long awaited forum has announced its release! You can register and post in this link.

Best Forum

Define WCG

Today i went to Suntec for cosplay convention/WCG. It was awesome! I get to see good cosplay from SINGAPORE. Now i am god dam amazed by singapore cosplay standards. Here are some pictures taken.

Godlike cosplay.Her cosplay is so good, its inspiring to other cosplayers.

Well anyway, this is just a short post. And to conclude all, WCG is not about the game tournament anymore. Its now about the show girls and about Olympic Game Boxing watched using Starhub connection. Well thats what the group concludes. Lastly, some retro person.

Link!

Ok bye bye!

Jokes For Programmers Only

No one will understand this unless they are from DET GP side. You can read, but you will not understand. This is the torture of a programmer. No one understands you, you are always alone in your world.

"天才是寂寞的" - 华金传

Random ranting on making a unique shader program for assignment.

A: unique is wat u cant find in other games
A: hmm lets try to think of an example
B: ok
A: oh yea i saw a shader that convert the whole screen to ascii characters
B: omg
A: that would be unique enuf
B: then maybe i do a shader that can make shader
A: also can
B: LMAO
A: lol
B: hmmm
A: things like motion blur, dust and dirt on screen, too common
B: how about cum on screen?
B: thats unique
A: ar not a bad idea
A: very unique
A: lol
B: how about a shader tat displays "you are an idiot" animation when u enter?
B: and a shader that can produce sound
A: gou zheng (our lecturer) will say u are a retard
B: lol
B: ok i make a shader that can play sound
B: super imba
B: then guo zheng will be like "wtf how he make the GPU play sound?"
A: lol
A: maybe he will say, oh nice one, but i did that 10 years ago using shader 1.0
A: but is there a 1.0?
B: his version
A: zomg
A: gz
B: guo zhen is actually guang zhe (friend that is quite plump)
A: ya
A: he use shader to transform himself
B: he use shaders to morph himself
B: LOL

Super retarded conversation. Anyway last week of work, have to work harder, this would be the last assignments that could determine more.

*Pew* Im dead!

Wow..
So many rotting corpse and spider webs in my blog.
Crap..
Not dead hippies again..
Have to clean them up.

Well, i have not been posting for quite a long time. To start it off, i have already gone into a shopping spree starting from the date of the last post. Bought quite alot of stuffs and it can certainly help me de-stress. But the happiness did not last long.

This week. It is hell.

Gone through this week with so much misery that a double shot espresso seems so sweet to me. Since i have gone into this topic, i will tell you people about the curse that has gotten into me years back..

About 5 years back then
That fateful day i was walking down a street from my school back to my house. It was quite a quiet walk and then all of a sudden, i heard a loud scream. A scream of a girl. So i turned back immediately, and not to my surprise, i saw a girl. The girl was wearing my school uniform and she seemed very terrified. To my utter surprise, she was being chased by a, asumably horny, cockcroach. So i continued walking back home. Then! I saw something while i was quite a distance away from the frightened girl. It was crazy. I saw a gang of people hitting a retarded person. The retarded person was totally helpless because there were just too many of them ganging on him. And i happened to be the only one around, so i continued walking back home. After 10mins of walk, i finally reached home and had a nice dinner, which there after, i went to sleep soundly.


Thanks for reading on the above pieces of craps which are totally fictional. But in fact they do teach you some "moral values". Think about it, if i were to help the girl, who knows, i might get slap by her for killing her beloved pet cockcroach. And think about it. Helping a person against a gang? You would just have to pray that you will not stay more than a week in the hospital.

Well..
This is what my primary school and secondary school teachers have been teaching me. Mind Your Own Busniess. Talk about good moral values and "Hao Gong Ming", you know you are just lying through your teeth when you take your "Hao Gong Ming" test. Anyway, back to my curse part.

Every year, i will have a so called "cursed" month. During this month, i will recieve tons of unfortunate events and live in misery. This year, it might be that the cursed month have come early, thus landing on July. But it is alright i guess.

Sad Facts about me
Resigning Giodarno this week.
Wasnt able to present project because of a spoiled thumbdrive.
Flash games got a C grade.
Various other very sad events.

God dammit, Creep is fucking emo song!